Home for a few days

So I am back from the weekend at the draft test in Quakertown. Nice time with great people. Saw Macie and my sister and she is really coming along nicely. Will bring her to Colorado with me and that makes my trip out their just a tad more complicated, because 7 dogs is tougher than 6 dogs. Tomorrow Newell and I head south to Atlant for 4 days of dog shows. Excited to get the dog show season started We have so many nice dogs to start showing. Bastion just needs a major to finish and he will be in Harrisburg with Heather. THan we have Anya, Britta, COra, Macie. We need a chart to keep it all straight.If I think too much about it I get abit overwhelmed. I just need to let it happen. Whew breathe...

Blue Jobs and Pink Jobs

So I heard this the other day and I just love it. THere are jobs in the house or between the husband and wife that can be categorized as blue or pink. You know what I am talking about. The outside, cutting the grass, garbage, cleaning the garage, killing the bugs,, clearly blue jobs. Laundry, dishes, house cleaning, clearly pink jobs. I told Newell this and he warned that they could all be pink jobs if I wanted. SO, today I took apart the fridge to clean it out. Disgusting. Cant believe I actually put food in there. Something spilled and dripped all over and hardened. So I took everything out and scrubbed it to within an inch of its life. The problem, I couldnt quite get it back together. So, I did the best I could and waited for Newell to put it back together. Clearly a blue job.

Put a fork in me

As I sit here at 6:45 Sunday morning the 5th day of a 5 day dog show I ask myself. WHY IN THE WORLD DO I DO THIS??? I know I love the dog shows and you know how much I love the dogs, but this is ridiculous. I have left each morning at 6:30 and not gotten back homne each night until close to 8. I am pooped/ I was in charge Wed and Fri and today I am tempted to just stay home. But alas, the show calls. Another day, another dog show. Thank goodness for Starbucks.

Trust

So much of what I do with my dogs involves me having to trust other people. Trust them to have the same goals, integrity and trustworthiness that I have. Some of these people I dont know and I have to rely on others experience with them to guide me into decisions. Over the years, especially when it comes to Tanner I have been ultra protective. I did not breed him and I feel that I owe his breeder the utmost care when he was used for breeding makeing sure that those other breeders that used him for their breeding program is the same kind of breeder that I am. Now having said that, shame on me. I allowed him to be used with a breeder that I did not know, but I was told she was good to do business with. Well, here we go. The one bitch that was sold to a show home has not worked out and I want her to be spayed and not used for breeding. I have been meeting some resistence with this from the owners, so I reached out to this breeder, breeder to breeder to have her help me make these people do the right thing by this girl. To my horror this breeder would not help me. I am so disappointed, but in the end Shame on Me for not following my own instincts and not worked with this woman. SHame on me.

disappointment

So yesterday was Jackie's funeral. It was a true celebration of her life and surrounded by family it was all really ok. But there were some mising. I was particulary hurt by the lack of certain people that I expected to see. Only two dear friends made the trip to Baltimore to share their condolences with us. I was so grateful and appreciative to see them, But it made it even more noticable the ones that didn't come. Not only didn,t they come but no call or card. I guess that I misjudged our relationship and have terribly hurt feelings about it. I dont think it pays to put your heart out there, you only get it hurt.

Saying Goodbye

So on my special day, I said goodbye to one of my special people. My Mother in law Jackie. THe last thing I said to her tonight was Thank you. THank you for being such a great mother in law. Many people cant say that. BUt I can. She never was anything but loving and supportive. Never judgmental, never dissaproving, never anyting but wonderful. She leaves a family that surrounded her tonight with love/ She is the most blessed of women. As I whispered to her my thanks and told her how I was so grateful for who she was and how she loved me because her son did I said an extra prayer that I was as good a daughter in law as she was a mother in law. Go peacefully sweet Jackie we will all miss you terribly.. but your family will survivie because you have shown us how to love each other and that we do..

Happy Birthday to me

So, today is my birthday. 51 years old WOW that is old. I would like to think that I dont look 51 but just that might be me and my delusional thinking. But anyway. I woke up this morning with the puppy pooping in her crate, Newell taking the laundry downstairs and many dirty dogs that need to be washed for the big dog show this weekend. So eventhough today is my special day, it feels like any other day. Oh, but tonight we have a dinner planned with the kids in Frederick at one of our favorite restaurants/ That should be fun.