disappointment

So yesterday was Jackie's funeral. It was a true celebration of her life and surrounded by family it was all really ok. But there were some mising. I was particulary hurt by the lack of certain people that I expected to see. Only two dear friends made the trip to Baltimore to share their condolences with us. I was so grateful and appreciative to see them, But it made it even more noticable the ones that didn't come. Not only didn,t they come but no call or card. I guess that I misjudged our relationship and have terribly hurt feelings about it. I dont think it pays to put your heart out there, you only get it hurt.

Saying Goodbye

So on my special day, I said goodbye to one of my special people. My Mother in law Jackie. THe last thing I said to her tonight was Thank you. THank you for being such a great mother in law. Many people cant say that. BUt I can. She never was anything but loving and supportive. Never judgmental, never dissaproving, never anyting but wonderful. She leaves a family that surrounded her tonight with love/ She is the most blessed of women. As I whispered to her my thanks and told her how I was so grateful for who she was and how she loved me because her son did I said an extra prayer that I was as good a daughter in law as she was a mother in law. Go peacefully sweet Jackie we will all miss you terribly.. but your family will survivie because you have shown us how to love each other and that we do..

Happy Birthday to me

So, today is my birthday. 51 years old WOW that is old. I would like to think that I dont look 51 but just that might be me and my delusional thinking. But anyway. I woke up this morning with the puppy pooping in her crate, Newell taking the laundry downstairs and many dirty dogs that need to be washed for the big dog show this weekend. So eventhough today is my special day, it feels like any other day. Oh, but tonight we have a dinner planned with the kids in Frederick at one of our favorite restaurants/ That should be fun.

Off to Westminster...again

So after four years Tanner is not going to the Garden. I was so glad that we werent going to have to do that show. It is really a very long few days and very hard on the dog. So imagine my chagrin when G had a dog going. OK I said I will tag along. We will do dinner tonight at a nice restaurant and the day tomorrow will be long, but nothing like before because my own dog wont be there. Now we have another dog going that I may have to show. I have never shown at the Garden and quite honestly I never have really wanted to. So here I go, getting ready to show someone elses dog at the most prestigious show of the year. Now if I win, I will be really mad.

Awoken by an alarm

So, still in Wildwood I am awoken by some sort of announcement followed by a blaring alarm that is rocking the city. I open the back window and nothing unual, just a blaring alarm. After about 15 minutes I call the front desk to say what the heck is going on? THey dont know but they will let me know if we are evacuating. I am not comforted.

In Wildwood

So away agin this weekend Iknow Newell is getting pretty tied of me leaving on Friday and not coming home until Sunday. It makes for a long weekend for him. Last night Mere came up and they went to celebrate the 10 year anniversary of them winning the State Championsip. I am sorry I missed that. And tomorrow is SUper Bowl I will try to leave here right after we show and talk Newell through the CHili so we will have this for tomorrow night. I keep telling him that this is not the norm and soon the shows will be closer and I wont be away for the weekend. Next week is NY and the weekend after is Frederick and than we are home, I guess until NC in March. Maybe he should just start coming with me.